Sinnerman

 Today, at dawn on the first Friday of her exaltation—very chilly and fog such that you couldn’t see 20 feet before you (Venus and Saturn together in Pisces)—I called on Venus to empower a talisman that I hadn’t worn in quite a while and that I’m not sure I’ve ever fully connected with.


The operation started with rearranging my ancestor altar a bit—for some reason my maternal grandfather didn’t much want to be showing, so I put his picture behind my grandmother’s.


6 Ajmak/Cib—the consummate sinner. This is sort of the role he had in our family story. My grandma would call him “The Dragon.” She loved him to an impossible and maybe regrettable degree. It was a pretty gnarly life story. What can you do. There was definitely beauty in it. More than a fair share of tragedy.


Everybody pitched in for the magic. There was quite a lot of juicing flowing through that medal. It’s over my heart now doing its thing.


After the magic I went to work and indulged in a pack of cigarettes (so much for quitting agin yesterday!) and a fast food breakfast sandwich.


At work I fell short of doing quite what was expected of me—and yet, in the way I understand Ajmak to mean, I seemed to be forgiven on the basis of being charming and lovable. Thanks Venus!


Today Mars also perfected his Opposition to Pluto again. I can’t say I noticed it particularly. Pluto is hanging out on my natal moon right now so It’s strange. I didn’t notice being agitated. But I was definitely busy. And animated. I had like 4 or 5 cups of coffee.


After all that I was pretty wiped out and after getting home I laid in bed for a couple hours window shopping for thuribles on amazing, procrastinating getting up and doing conjuration 57 in my year of Shem operations. But I did it. And it was good. I haven’t had a bad experience with any of the Shem angels yet. Good vibes only.


I think tomorrow I’ll sleep in until 6. I wonder if that will end up being appropriate.


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