Two Days

 I missed my blog post yesterday! Trying not to let that completely kill the momentum of the thing. I have this all or nothing tendency that sort of keeps me in chaos. I’ll try to impose an overly rigid order that proves untenable, it falls apart and then I just drop it and get depressed.


That has happened with all the little gains I’ve made the last couple weeks—the daily blog posts, the Organize Tomorrow Today checklists, the morning spiritual cleansing and exercise. It has all gone by the wayside. And I guess the dam broke on it yesterday, which was 2 Kan.


It was a good day though, don’t get me wrong. I had a reading with Sanae which was awesome. More of a catch up chat than a proper reading but very uplifting. And the day ended by going to the movies with Nafeesa and my brother to see Nosferatu—which was a rad movie. Intensely Scorpio Pluto themes. Sex and Death. That was the whole movie. Beautifully done though, if perhaps a bit kind of pointless in the end. Willem Dafoe’s character was goals for sure.


But I lost track of my through line and didn’t post my blog.


So that was yesterday. I think right now I’ll take a shower, and do my ancestor moment and meditate and start to treat today


Now I’ve done all that and a bit of exercise and I just feel worn out. Like I’ve really been exhausting myself. To be honest the Kratom isn’t helping, nor the cigarettes. I could be taking better care of myself.


Today (right about now) the moon conjoins Mars. Underscores the need to fortify myself against whatever is surely coming.


It is 3 Kame today. A good day to think about death. And in processing the film from last night I supposed I have been thinking about it all day. I’ve just been home bodying today. Gave a couple readings. One of them actually made me feel a lot closer to somebody who I never really knew all that well, and now I feel like I kind of love that dude. Astrology readings are like that. Very intimate. And then it turns out that guy knows somebody that I am very interested in meeting and maybe becoming friends with one day. Wouldn’t that be something.

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